I feel like I'm often apologiznig for not updating or writing as often as I feel I should. And I'm doing it again tonight. Life has had it's way with me this week. I'm in charge of my company's Annual Meeting tomorrow (UGH), and Im co-hosting a baby shower Saturday (yay!). A lot of work is going into both and I'm spent. I'm just ready for Saturday's shower to get here. It's in one of my favorite cities, Charleston, with some of my most favorite people in the world. Plus, it's a couples shower--yay for the husbands being at the shower!
Anyway, if you've stuck with me, thanks. This blog is mainly an outlet for me, but I do appreciate all 2 of my readers! :-)
Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!!!
Oh--and I tried the Netti Pot tonight for the first time. Freaky!!! Has anyone else used it? Thoughts?
April 15, 2010
April 7, 2010
Fun Weekend Ahead
I won't be around this weekend. I'm taking a trip with my girlfriends from college...which is ALWAYS a good time. I hope you all have a fabulous weekend!
April 5, 2010
The One Where NoStylePoints and Alena29 and TheNextMartha Inspired Me
As you all know by now, I do not have children. And I may never have children. And that's OK. Maybe I'm not strong enough. I know I'm not as strong as Adrienne Jones. She is an amazing woman, raising a beautiful child fighting bipolar disease. I admire her strength and determintaion to bring this disease to public attention and do something about it. If you see fit, please go here to help her fight. The wonderful company, The Little Bean, is donating $2 from the sale of every coffee, tea, cocoa, and chai product through their website--amazing! Please support this wonderful company and Adrienne's important cause--or at least spread the word.
Thank you Alena29 and TheNextMartha, for inspiring me to write this post, and for bringing Adrienne's plight to the forefront of my Twitter feeds.
Thank you Alena29 and TheNextMartha, for inspiring me to write this post, and for bringing Adrienne's plight to the forefront of my Twitter feeds.
April 3, 2010
The One Where Jennandtonica Inspired Me
So, it's a random Saturday night and we are home. Thanks to my chronic aversion to pollen, I am drugged on anti-histamines beyond belief, and I will not go out in public with a dripping snotty nose. Because that’s just not hot.
One of my friends on Twitter, Jennandtonica, did a great vlog tonight about her 10 most played songs in her iTunes library. I'm copying her.
My 10 most played songs ever in my iTunes library are:
10. Dancing Virginia by Jump Little Children--this song reminds me of fun college friends
9. Just Like Heaven by The Cure--I love this song--a real mood lifter and I often listen to it as I'm pulling into work
8. Bizarre Love Triangle by New Order--I don't know why, I just like this song
7. A Little Respect by Erasure--What can I say, I love the 80's
6. Yesterday by The Beatles--I was raised on Beatles music. I love them.
5. Me & Honey by REM--besides Superman, hands down my favorite REM song
4. Paradise City by Guns N Roses--Take me home Axl! Haha!
3. Pour Some Sugar On Me by Def Leppard--I watched hours and hours of MTV waiting for this video to play--back when MTV actually played videos
2. Blister in the Sun by Violent Femmes--this song reminds me of high school, my first boyfriend, and swim meets
1. You Give Love a Bad Name by Bon Jovi--Who doesn't love this song??
And a bonus for you all...the 5 most recently played songs in my iTunes library are:
5. Love Story by Taylor Swift--my nieces love this one and played it a gazillion times when they were over last. I like it too....
4. Seven Bridges Road by the Eagles--I love the harmonies in this one
3. Alone by Heart--the Glee version--I love Kristen Chenowith and Matthew Morrison singing this song. I belt this one out in my car.
2. Girlfriend by Avril Lavigne--this makes me want to dance
1. Tik Tok by Ke$ha--this one actually makes me dance--but I don't care for the dollar sign in her name.
So, there you have it. I wouldn't say this is an accurate depiction of my musical taste, but this is the most popular according to my iTunes. What songs are your top ten??
One of my friends on Twitter, Jennandtonica, did a great vlog tonight about her 10 most played songs in her iTunes library. I'm copying her.
My 10 most played songs ever in my iTunes library are:
10. Dancing Virginia by Jump Little Children--this song reminds me of fun college friends
9. Just Like Heaven by The Cure--I love this song--a real mood lifter and I often listen to it as I'm pulling into work
8. Bizarre Love Triangle by New Order--I don't know why, I just like this song
7. A Little Respect by Erasure--What can I say, I love the 80's
6. Yesterday by The Beatles--I was raised on Beatles music. I love them.
5. Me & Honey by REM--besides Superman, hands down my favorite REM song
4. Paradise City by Guns N Roses--Take me home Axl! Haha!
3. Pour Some Sugar On Me by Def Leppard--I watched hours and hours of MTV waiting for this video to play--back when MTV actually played videos
2. Blister in the Sun by Violent Femmes--this song reminds me of high school, my first boyfriend, and swim meets
1. You Give Love a Bad Name by Bon Jovi--Who doesn't love this song??
And a bonus for you all...the 5 most recently played songs in my iTunes library are:
5. Love Story by Taylor Swift--my nieces love this one and played it a gazillion times when they were over last. I like it too....
4. Seven Bridges Road by the Eagles--I love the harmonies in this one
3. Alone by Heart--the Glee version--I love Kristen Chenowith and Matthew Morrison singing this song. I belt this one out in my car.
2. Girlfriend by Avril Lavigne--this makes me want to dance
1. Tik Tok by Ke$ha--this one actually makes me dance--but I don't care for the dollar sign in her name.
So, there you have it. I wouldn't say this is an accurate depiction of my musical taste, but this is the most popular according to my iTunes. What songs are your top ten??
March 31, 2010
An Anniversary of Sorts
Disclaimer: This post is long, not funny, and has no photos. And you may cry. You’ve been warned.
April 5th marks the 5th anniversary of the day that changed my life, my world, my marriage, forever. It was the day that my dreams of becoming a mother, the good old-fashioned biological way, were destroyed. Ripped to shreds. Smashed to smithereens. We asked the kind doctor if we had a chance of being one of those lucky couples—you know, the ones you always hear about. They started the adoption process and then got pregnant. They were told it would never happen and once they stopped the meds, the stress, the regimen that infertility treatments bring to your life, they got pregnant. The answer was not a chance in Hell. Never. That’s a hard thing to hear, when you’ve already had your gut kicked in, your heart ripped out, and you are crying so hard you’re in danger of dehydration. I will never forget that moment.
It’s been a tough five years. Many pregnancies—friends, co-workers, family members. People pregnant on purpose. People pregnant by mistake. And with each pregnancy—a baby shower to attend. To celebrate. The one thing I would never have. They killed me at first. In fact, I missed my BFF’s shower for her first child. It was 2 weeks after we found out. Too soon. The cuts were still wide open—and I didn’t need salt poured in them. It’s gotten a lot easier since then. I attend baby showers all the time now. Hell, I’ve even planned and hosted a few myself. Because that’s what you do. You stand by your friends, in happy times and in sad. And every one of my friends has been there for me. I’m lucky that way.
I’m still dealing with the idea that I’ll never be pregnant. I will never POAS and think of a clever way to tell the Mister that we did it! We made a baby! I will never see the wonder in his eyes and the joy on his face that moment brings. That breaks my heart. Every time someone announces to me that they are pregnant, I am genuinely thrilled for them. I really am. I’m just also a little bit sad for me. Why does it happen so easily for some? Why do they get to be parents, once, twice, three times over? Why can’t I have that???
I’m sure some of you are thinking, “what about adoption?” It’s in the cards for us, I’m sure…but it’s a long road that is emotionally trying. Plus it’s expensive. And, we’re just not there yet. We have some healing to do still. It didn’t just affect me. The Mister has been very affected by our diagnoses. So, we will wait until we are ready.
Through all this, I have to say, there has been a silver lining of sorts. We were married October, 2004. We started our fertility process in Feb of 2005. By April 5, 2005 we knew that no amount of treatment, IUI or IVF would work for us. We are lucky for that. We did not have to go through the months of hoping this was the month, only to be disappointed over and over again. I have friends who have gone through that—IUI, IVF, miscarriage—and I see the heartbreak… I’m not very religious, but God really does only give you what you can handle. I’m not sure I could have handled that—I’m not that strong. I admire those of you who have the strength to endure infertility treatments. And I pray that you are successful and hold a baby in your arms soon.
The other fortunate thing is that the Mister and I are both infertile. It’s not one or the other of us. We are fairly unique in that aspect and I feel so lucky to have found him—he is my rock.
So…when I started this blog, I wasn’t sure I was going to write about our infertility. It’s been weighing on my mind a lot lately though…so, here it is. Our story as to why we are not parents.
In case you are wondering here are our diagnoses…
The Mrs
The Mister (link contains anotomical pictures) (OK, so there are pictures) (sort of)
April 5th marks the 5th anniversary of the day that changed my life, my world, my marriage, forever. It was the day that my dreams of becoming a mother, the good old-fashioned biological way, were destroyed. Ripped to shreds. Smashed to smithereens. We asked the kind doctor if we had a chance of being one of those lucky couples—you know, the ones you always hear about. They started the adoption process and then got pregnant. They were told it would never happen and once they stopped the meds, the stress, the regimen that infertility treatments bring to your life, they got pregnant. The answer was not a chance in Hell. Never. That’s a hard thing to hear, when you’ve already had your gut kicked in, your heart ripped out, and you are crying so hard you’re in danger of dehydration. I will never forget that moment.
It’s been a tough five years. Many pregnancies—friends, co-workers, family members. People pregnant on purpose. People pregnant by mistake. And with each pregnancy—a baby shower to attend. To celebrate. The one thing I would never have. They killed me at first. In fact, I missed my BFF’s shower for her first child. It was 2 weeks after we found out. Too soon. The cuts were still wide open—and I didn’t need salt poured in them. It’s gotten a lot easier since then. I attend baby showers all the time now. Hell, I’ve even planned and hosted a few myself. Because that’s what you do. You stand by your friends, in happy times and in sad. And every one of my friends has been there for me. I’m lucky that way.
I’m still dealing with the idea that I’ll never be pregnant. I will never POAS and think of a clever way to tell the Mister that we did it! We made a baby! I will never see the wonder in his eyes and the joy on his face that moment brings. That breaks my heart. Every time someone announces to me that they are pregnant, I am genuinely thrilled for them. I really am. I’m just also a little bit sad for me. Why does it happen so easily for some? Why do they get to be parents, once, twice, three times over? Why can’t I have that???
I’m sure some of you are thinking, “what about adoption?” It’s in the cards for us, I’m sure…but it’s a long road that is emotionally trying. Plus it’s expensive. And, we’re just not there yet. We have some healing to do still. It didn’t just affect me. The Mister has been very affected by our diagnoses. So, we will wait until we are ready.
Through all this, I have to say, there has been a silver lining of sorts. We were married October, 2004. We started our fertility process in Feb of 2005. By April 5, 2005 we knew that no amount of treatment, IUI or IVF would work for us. We are lucky for that. We did not have to go through the months of hoping this was the month, only to be disappointed over and over again. I have friends who have gone through that—IUI, IVF, miscarriage—and I see the heartbreak… I’m not very religious, but God really does only give you what you can handle. I’m not sure I could have handled that—I’m not that strong. I admire those of you who have the strength to endure infertility treatments. And I pray that you are successful and hold a baby in your arms soon.
The other fortunate thing is that the Mister and I are both infertile. It’s not one or the other of us. We are fairly unique in that aspect and I feel so lucky to have found him—he is my rock.
So…when I started this blog, I wasn’t sure I was going to write about our infertility. It’s been weighing on my mind a lot lately though…so, here it is. Our story as to why we are not parents.
In case you are wondering here are our diagnoses…
The Mrs
The Mister (link contains anotomical pictures) (OK, so there are pictures) (sort of)
March 29, 2010
All Hail Broke Loose
We had some pretty significant storms last night--there were tornados in the area. Tornados.Freak.Me.Out. I grew up the next town over from this. I was almost 2 when that happened, but I swear it scarred me for life. So, when the warnings were issued that the tornados were headed straight for us, I, or course, freaked out. A lot. My husband cleared out the closet under the stairs for me. And then came the hail. I have never seen hail like this...we went from no precip at all to a hail covered deck in 5 minutes. Thankfully the tornados missed us and we had no damage. This time...............
Some pictures...sorry they are crappy quality. I was too busy freaking out to take fabulous pictures.
Some pictures...sorry they are crappy quality. I was too busy freaking out to take fabulous pictures.
Our hail covered deck
The hail river down our front walk. I have no clue why the street light is green...weird!
March 28, 2010
Blah....
That's how I'm feeling these days. I've got a post about some pretty heavy stuff brewing in my head, and I'm having a hard time putting it to paper. In the meantime, my weekend in bullets...
- hair appointment--love the color, jury is still out on the cut
- met with friends to plan a baby shower in a city three hours away--not an easy task
- basketball
- Steel Magnolias
- Harris Teeter triple coupons
- rain
- no motivation
- tornado warning
- Breaking Dawn
How has your weekend been?
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